Cuz I watched From Up On Poppy Hill in the theatres yesterday and omgee.

So okay, it's not Hayao's movie. I haven't seen Tales of Earthsea or that other movie Goro did. It wasn't an epic film and blah-blah-blah~ But I must still be a schoolgirl at heart to have enjoyed it as much as I did. Ahhh, I wish I could better describe my feels. Ffffffffff---



On some other notes I suppose... I've got roughly less than a month to be ready for that convention of which I have not even rented a table yet, and I still have to do stuff like get a sales tax permit or whatevs, and yeah... Even though I'm liking the challenge, knowing from prior experience where I just struggled to get even a single cosplay together... Well, volunteering is looking like a smarter and smarter alternative already. *lesigh*

AniMegaCon is the only local one occuring this year cuz the OkamiCon got cancelled. :< That was gonna be like two or three more months down the road?

AniMegaCon sounds very general as well, theme-wise, so that ought to be easy enough to prepare for. But yeah, maybe I'll just volunteer instead at this point. Ahm... yeah, cuz... I'm still having trouble liking anything that I make. It's all doodles so far. Can't even get my tumblr to look a certain way, and then there's the whole sticking to a business card design and---

Not trying to drama over this, it's just becoming one of those things though.



Also though, something that is of some potential drama... The day when I -- as I should -- enter an Art Program. :<

I have a dumb fear of the application process because of the whole transfer credits thing and also essays which I've never been good at, and then also also my 2.75 GPA score. :< *huff*

And then I'm also back-of-mind-being-paranoid that there's nothing innovative about my ideas and shiz. cuz... say if I chose to throw whatever government money and loans I can get at attending Art Center College of Design (which was suggested to me by one of my sister's good friends and he says that they have a very high hiring rate upon graduation, etc etc).

Wherever I am now certainly isn't cut for applying there at the mo'. Wherever I am in another year or two? I don't know. I will try try try to practice hard again and improve myself, cuz I've been so dang stagnant since I stopped schooling CSN at the end of 2010. And apparently I failed my Contemporary Art class, but then again that's primarily cuz I never did those POV gallery journal thingies. I sorta did one (but very very incorrectly), and it took 'til the end of the course for me to realize that I didn't even understand the requirements of the papers. :\ Aaaaand so that's another thing that has me feel like I'm too single-minded or light-minded to successfully keep up with anything difficult and demanding. :\ Which is what ACCoD or any other program that I would willingly throw money at would be. It's like I still can't decide if 'mediocrity' is good enough or not. Can't escape the 'need a degree' school of thought, cuz that's both side of ze family.

I'm gonna google internships if it's not too late.


ALSO PLEASE visit 's journal ---> A Little Bit of HelpI have been working as a car salesman for two months now. Despite the obvious sterotyping of the job title, I have really enjoyed working there and hope to continue to do so. The money I have been making has allowed me to finally pay off some loans, get a new car, and even start saving money instead of living paycheck to paycheck. Its something I truely appreciate.
However, things have slown down for me at work. I have not had many sales this month(of the required per moth quota, I am only 1/3 of the way there). In addition, I have not had a lot of luck bringing interested people into the dealership, and my bosses are starting to take notice. I like this job a lot, and I do not wish to end up being let go from it, especially after only two months. And I realize that what I'm asking for is a long shot, given that not many people that follow me live in the same area. But I still want to try.
So I ask you all: If you live or know someone that lives in the Dallas/Fort Worth, Texas area and